i sometimes feel that my life, as i'm living it now, is just a sort of test run. that one day i'm going to wake up in my bed in bahrain, 15 again, like this was all a dream, but a little wiser. i would know what to really focus on, what choices to make, and what to let slide.
i realize that if my life were a movie or a novel and this were to happen, that the course of my life could be significantly altered. i do believe that there are certain places you are meant to be, things you are meant to do, and people who you are meant to have in your life, so although my life path may be altered, i would still be hitting those marks and meeting those people. but who knows, maybe very little would change...maybe after a time, my wisdom would fade and i'd end up doing the same damn things i've already done.
still, i'd like to try it and see what happens.
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
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Monday, June 18, 2007
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
here is good right now
is it stupid that a stupid myspace survey can make you have an epiphany?
last night i couldn't sleep and i was filling out this "61 odd questions" survey and came to the question: "where would you rather be?" and you know, i didn't have an answer. i don't think that has ever happened. i ALWAYS want to be somewhere else...traveling, etc. and this time i didn't. i had an awesome day yesterday: walked over the williamsburg bridge, bummed around the lower east side and east village, sat in a park, had dinner with friends, had a very interesting (and scarily accurate) tarot reading, and just had a great time.
so then i couldn't sleep and i came to this question and had the realization that there was no where that i'd rather be than here and now. and that's a good thing to have.
i just got back from a free LIVE karaoke night in my neighborhood...it's live with a piano, not a machine. that's pretty fucking scary. i rocked out with my cracking voice to nothing compares to you (which had the entire bar singing with me) and then did a pretty punk rock version of build me up butter cup with ian, kurtis's roommate. ian...kurtis...ian curtis...anyone get the reference? ian certainly didn't. (by the way, eric, this is for you...today is/was the 23rd and ian curtis died at age 23...23 is an auspicious number)
but anyway, i just wanted to let you know that here is good right now. here is really good. i'm having fun and for the first time in i don't know how long, there's no where i'd rather be.
last night i couldn't sleep and i was filling out this "61 odd questions" survey and came to the question: "where would you rather be?" and you know, i didn't have an answer. i don't think that has ever happened. i ALWAYS want to be somewhere else...traveling, etc. and this time i didn't. i had an awesome day yesterday: walked over the williamsburg bridge, bummed around the lower east side and east village, sat in a park, had dinner with friends, had a very interesting (and scarily accurate) tarot reading, and just had a great time.
so then i couldn't sleep and i came to this question and had the realization that there was no where that i'd rather be than here and now. and that's a good thing to have.
i just got back from a free LIVE karaoke night in my neighborhood...it's live with a piano, not a machine. that's pretty fucking scary. i rocked out with my cracking voice to nothing compares to you (which had the entire bar singing with me) and then did a pretty punk rock version of build me up butter cup with ian, kurtis's roommate. ian...kurtis...ian curtis...anyone get the reference? ian certainly didn't. (by the way, eric, this is for you...today is/was the 23rd and ian curtis died at age 23...23 is an auspicious number)
but anyway, i just wanted to let you know that here is good right now. here is really good. i'm having fun and for the first time in i don't know how long, there's no where i'd rather be.
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